When I found out I was pregnant in July, it never crossed my mind that anything would happen other than a blissful gestation with a beautiful baby making his or her debut in mid-March. My expectations changed dramatically when, just a few weeks after that big fat positive, the bleeding started. Five days later, my doctor confirmed a miscarriage.
In the short time I knew I was pregnant, I changed fundamentally. I became a mommy, but now I’m a mommy with no baby to hold. My arms ache for that child, and mostly I feel dead inside.
I thought getting pregnant again would make it all better. In some ways, it did. But I never imagined the utter terror I would feel every moment, just waiting for something to go wrong. How do people get through this? How do parents manage after a loss?
We’re making it up as we go. Thanks for coming along for the journey.
Hi,
Our son was stillborn at 35 weeks. Perfectly healthy and beautiful, but his heart stopped beating with no reason as to why. That was six months ago. We just found out we’re pregnant again, and I am also.concerned about constantly being afraid. I’ve learned from our loss that faith in God can carry me through anything, so I’m bound and determined to enjoy every moment I have this little life growing inside me and, no matter what may come, I’m just thankful for another chance to be a mom. Hope that helps a little :-)